..... My feeling....

oh .. time pass like a rocket suddenly , since 12/25/2007 - 03/12/2008 is already been 2 month and 16 days from the first day we are together until now ... yes this is not a long period for both of us .. and although in between this few month we are not together for everydays , but we are always cheris every single moment we spend together . i really miss all the time we are together . eating , talking , shopping , driving and lot lot for me to think back in this short period . yes i know this is very ordinary for all couple right ? but for me every single little things we have done together will always remember well in my memory until the end of my days. yes like other couple we do have little quarrel for it . but everything is ko for me right now . since i do promise for her that i won't do it again**hopefully , on your april arrive here to meet me . was another great time for me and youUuu... every day after i finish working i spend all my time at my room . and waiting for wake up call for her... every single morning was my most happier time no matter how tired am i, i don't care to sleep or tired when time almost reach for me to call her . and waiting for her to clean herself up while i'm again waiting to make my last call for her and mumbling to her . to have breakfast and drink more water. oh sound like father*** yes agree she always say me too many word for her! ouchhhh~~ i was caring her how dare to say me like that right ?? i don't know how is my ending with her and this is a question only god can answer me . does she really are my last princess in my life?? i'm crazy for this answer and keep thinking bad way for this .. you know how stupid am i ? hahahah last week she got her first job since the day she been fired long time ago . and when i know her she really doesn't look like carrier girl for me! yes it is! in my heart she is kind of baby ? doesn't really look like will finish her 6 days working as a PDA promoter?? oh my god she was happy for what she have done. complete the 6 days hell session ...in between this few day time pass fast for her but not me. i can't sleep tight or sleep well every morning . keep worrying her , did she have her breakfast on time ? did she manage to do her job well ?? you must be wondering why i don't stop her for taking the 6 days session while i keep worrying for so many things?? yes at first i was very objection for her to work!! but she keen to do it . and i don't wish totally for upset her while she really like the job reason high pay o!! so what can i say again ? no no no ?? hahahah i'm not those cold blood animal . and here her go for the jobs... and ? i know those bastard will nonstop for getting near her. and this is the point i keep worrying ? oh not that i don't trust on her... but i don't trust on bastard! agree? and at a last days of her job done. was a bastard sending her home. and i know this kind of things won't get out of my life since i'm thousand miles aways from her ... and was at late time. of course i don't wish her to going back home by bus or taxi alone at so late time. so finally i was also agree for her to let the bastard send her home. oh baby ... while last night you tell me he keep sending sms to her and finding opportunity to approach her while i'm far far aways .... i know this is only a starter for a cruel and finishing dinner.. i really sad and worries for it ... i can't do anything and only trust her .. i know she won't betray me as i know her loyalty to me. but can her really stand and keep saying no to all the guys come to her?? my feeling right now is really down ... and the song i'm listening now is really making me the way all down. why this stupid laptop can always catch my feeling . always dedicated my heart song base on my mood! maybe it was just a stupid concidence !! i know lot of things is not always on our control even you can always manage and control it well . sometime you will meet suprise and suprise will kill you.. 1 years only can meet few times with her ? and as what i know .. she still not that mature and need someone by her side to look after her... she is always lovely and love by everyone in this world. my choice o! of course la! i dont know what i could do again ..and in this period i dont care so many thing just do what i promise her and be her number 1 in her hearts , she surely will know how good am ! tonight was not very good for me . i hope time get fast to next days and everything will start all over again for me and her .. at here i wish her get good result in her coming exam and living happily , i'm always here for you . no matter how the world is going ! i'm still the one who standing there for you all the time! lastly and always love you and miss you here! god bless me for her!~!~!~!~ almost time for me to wake her up. kekek byeZZzzzz